Transparency or Opacity?
March 26th, 2009I’m not quite sure if it was days or weeks ago that my dad asked me simply on the phone one night, “are you ever going to blog again now that you have a boyfriend?” I rolled my eyes and told him that I was working on it, but somewhere inside was unnerved that he had so quickly seized up my greatest current conundrum. You see when it was just me, talking about me was easy. All aspects of life and relationships were dissected and analyzed. Everything was fair game (as long as that old roommate or acquaintance wasn’t stalking me here), but now with another player involved I no longer feel that way. Funny thing is that while I’ve spent the last two months (at least) working to figure out how to continue to be me on here and still be open about the parts of my life that now include him, he’s had no issue whatsoever with the notion that he might be mentioned on the intarwebz.
In this new world order, I’ve been blogging privately. Seeking the necessary outlet of putting my thoughts and experiences to paper and only externally posting the silly and superficial things that allowed me to keep control of both of my domains, public and private. I’ve wondered how to appropriately answer your comments and questions of why this personal garden I once took so much pride in has been allowed to become overgrown with weeds, and honestly, the only reason I can come up with is to protect this seedling relationship. Stupid, I know. Unnecessary, I’ve come to realize. Dramatic, it’s me. Let’s not act surprised.
So give me another chance, and I’ll make it right starting right now because it feels like forever and I have so much I need to share. Take a big deep breath, world, and we’ll start with the obvious. I have a boyfriend and while this is never going to be one of the girlfriend blogs, you will once again be privy to all aspects of my life including him. Sound like a good deal? I hope so!
Music is my life. Everything can be expressed, handled or just felt more deeply with the right chord or phrase. I have been blessed with some amazing friends and am still at that point where my life is an open book. If you’d like, stick around for a bit and help me write a few chapters…
Link Here | April 13, 2009,
Ah ha! There was a reason we were only getting YouTube blogs.
I knew it! You don’t have to share everything with us – although I wouldn’t mind an email or two with the juicier gossip.
Comment by Judy
Link Here | April 13, 2009,
Good to have you back! We all were wondering where this Laurel had gone.
Comment by Mom
Link Here | April 15, 2009,
I often say that when I’m not writing about my life it’s because I’m off living it.
This is my first visit to your interweb bloggyspot in like…100 years. And I keep forgetting to blog on mine…
Comment by Heather Bee |
Link Here | April 18, 2009,
@Heather Bee – I know. How dare we live our lives?!?!
Comment by Laurel |
Link Here | April 18, 2009,
@Judy – I can do that.
Comment by Laurel |