I’ve spent a lot of my last few months sorting through every emotion there has ever been. I would list them one by one. But google ‘emotions’ and you’ll find me there. Today I decided to quit being so angry. Emotions aren’t a choice but how you deal with them is. So today, I’m not angry. I’m working to not let things get to me. I going to be happy, not bitchy, but happy. Why? Because it’s healthier. Because no one wants to deal with someone who is an emotional vampire. No one likes a party pooper but most importantly, because its best for me. Because I’m hoping my tears have dried up and my smiles are here to stay. Each day will get easier and easier to be genuinely happy as I learn to base my happiness on heavenly things and not the order and belonging I desire.

How do you know what God has in store for you? You ask. You rest. You bury yourself in Him and His word. There will be hard days. I’m sure of it. But the only way I live out my Faith is actually living out my Faith. Not talking about it. Not pretending. But bunkering down and standing firm in Him. Pray for me….. and me, pray for you.