Remember…. what goes around come back around.

So today I had to work… actually I have to work all weekend…. so how productive was I at certain times…. this should tell you.

Yahoo Sports and MySpace… heck yes!

So Keri and I finally got our ‘hairs’ cut today… then decided to be vain and take fun pics…. wanna see?

So maybe I’m not as clever as I think I am…. I made homemade ornaments for my friends for Christmas, and apparently, lil Kyle pulled Mindy’s apart and was chewing on the beads and huge corsage pins… Good job, me. Cute does not equal safe. Thank goodness he’s ok.

My dear friend and ex-college roommate, Emily, was in town all weekend. Just to start by setting the record straight…. we were under the same roof for 2 nights and it worked out well. It’s truly amazing how three, short years ago Emily, myself, and a person to remain unnamed were living together during my senior year. To keep the story quick, things didn’t work out between the three of us and Emily and said person of no importance moved out. But now…. Click To Continue Reading…

So my Grandma Gussie had a stroke today. How many times do I have to type “…had a stroke today” or even “…was rushed to the ER today”? I seem to say it a lot lately. There is good news… apparently they don’t believe it’s life threatening. She can’t walk. She’s been having mini-strokes for days, but they (the doctors) think there is a chance she will improve and get better. She’s received the standard diagnosis of 6 months before she’s walking on her own… but she will walk. She has to. She’s young and healthy, and I’ve already lost one grandmother. I’m not ready for her to go. I won’t lose her before I spend more time with her. Before she knows what she means to me. You don’t make the same mistakes twice.

I wish I could say that I’m handling it well but that would be a lie. I’m definitely scared and freaked out. I’ve wondered aloud, “why?” Why have all of these things happened this year? Why does God think Keri and I are strong enough to handle such things? I don’t feel strong enough. I feel like a whiner when I have to tell people my latest nightmare. I feel like every week I have a new tragedy, a new reason to not be on my A game and while everyone is supportive, I’m still broken and exhausted…..

Be strong…. make a joke… smile…. be strong… no cracks in the surface… Be strong… Be strong… Be strong

So like most Thursday, the office had lunch at the nearby Buffalo Wild Wings today. With it being spring break there was a smaller crowd than usual, only 6 of us. Everything seemed quite normal. Trivial, superficial conversations between the student workers, my coworkers, and others in the department until the inevitable happens… various subjects are brought up in which my opinion differs from everyone else at the table. Religion, drugs and alcohol, homosexuality, politics… yeah we hit all the big ones… well we didn’t, they did. I stayed silent. They know how I feel and the hardest part is that they judge me. I don’t judge them but their judgment to them is enlightenment. They drew a line in the sand. Defined people as conservative or intelligent. If I did the same, I would be a sheltered, narrow-minded Jesus freak.
It’s not easy being one of the only conservative believers but its harder to be the believer in the office and have church going the way it is. I feel like a horrible witness. Oh yeah do these things, act this way, go to church.. until you screw up. I’m not doing very well when it comes to getting over this whole church thing. Partially because I feel like so alone and ill at ease. So what’s the moral? Despite how everyone else is and what you’re going through, act how you are called to act and hold your head high.